Lifentasy

Getting lost in the thought of us together and alone is my not-so-guilty pleasure. Replaying our moments in my head is my favourite kind of escape. Living in a fantasy I want to turn into reality so badly. The mind is a powerful tool and I use mine to keep you close to me, so close we become one. I want you inside my skin, I’d rather be killed by you than any other of my addictions. I can’t tell the difference between love and lust when it comes to you anymore. I feel it all at the same time, every emotion to the max. My imagination is running wild and real life is constantly ruining my illusions. But you have what it takes to make them come true. You look at me and I get lost in you in an instant. When you’re away I always find myself calling out for you. It’s like heaven and hell on earth. Just a little bit more, though it will never be enough. No amount of time will leave me completely satisfied, greedy for your existence. Through the highs and the lows, the toughest moments, when I...

Walking around with a broken heart is a struggle not talked about enough. You stand there watching others pass by and your life running right in front of you. But you’re stuck, you’re unable to move. You function on auto pilot and breathing becomes a chore. People talk to you and everything they say bothers you. It feels like a permanent hangover you can’t get rid of. You try to tell yourself you’ll be fine. You’ve heard that time will heal you and that it all happened for a reason, but none of these cliche phrases help you in any way. It’s all too generic and pointless. You’re waiting for something to occur to make you feel better, although deep down you know it won’t.  You look away from places you used to go to together and hate anything that reminds you of them, when in reality it just makes you miss them even more. You’re in pieces and with every motion you break a little more. You keep falling but can’t seem to understand where the rock bottom is, it keeps getting worse and w...