Lifentasy

happened today... I did it. I got him alone. I had him for two hours. He was mine for a while. I was holding him. I had everything I wanted. But he asked for too much. Much more that I could ever give not only to him but to anyone. I just can't, I gave him more than I've ever given to a guy and it wasn't enough. All he wanted was me to give him my body as it is with no feelings or mercy. I couldn't do anything more than what I did. This was the last time, the second and last time. Was it worth all the effort? I'm not sure. I just wish I could give it all to him. But I couldn't. I feel so confused and empty. He treated me as if I meant nothing. And I know I didn't ask for feelings but still. I wanna thank God for giving me the chance to spend time with the guy I'm in love with. I can't ask for more. I wanted one last time with him and it happened I don't wanna be ungrateful. I'm having a headache and I feel like crying. I'll ge...

(If you’ve missed part one (I posted it a year ago) check it out here .) Okay, so today I won’t get into personal details or events. I’ll just say that throughout this year, many things happened, I was in a relationship for quite a few months so he wasn’t in my life. He “came” back a. because I broke up & I started flirting again, b. because I had a dream of him one day and the next day I saw him and here we go again. This post is going to be about the feels he gives me not about the events. When he looks at me I feel like every cell of my body is being activated. I feel like he speaks to my heart. He sets my body on fire. I can’t get his look out of my head, at some point I don’t want to. He’s so handsome, seeing him makes my eyes and heart happy. Just seeing him, it brings me back to life. His blue eyes are the prettiest thing I’ve ever starred at. One look and I’m upon cloud 9, I’m happy, it’s all I need. You know, it feels right. Even if ...