TRPBMP - Unpublished
I wrote this article a few months ago and never got to publish it, not sure why, but... here it is
"The real people behind my posts:
About a month ago, I published an article about a
guy that broke my heart, before publishing it I actually sent it to him
–something I usually never do. His comments on it made me realize how different
each individual reacts to the same thing and how unique everyone’s perspective
is. That being said, I decided to kinda introduce him to you instead of writing
about him. I wanted for you to meet who inspired me to write what I wrote; I
might do this again for another guy in the future given the chance.
M A J O R disclaimer: I will refer to him with the
letter ‘L’ for privacy reasons. Also this is how I’d describe his character
etc. to other people, each person has their point of view but I’ll try to be as
objective as possible.
To find out how & when I met L take a look
here. So, just like any other typical guy of his age, he’s obsessed with a
certain sports team, he has his guy friends, goes to uni, likes tattoos, his music
(which, for the most part, I hate), he isn’t quite a party animal, he binge
watches online series and used to be a sports athlete as he claims, although I
don't really believe that.
What I fell in love with tho, is none of that, I was
impressed with how mature he was for his age and how well he treated others
without being a geek, I mean he was a cool & fun guy but at the same time
not an assh*le. We met each other from something super random, I actually asked
him to do me a favor that wasn’t even about me, I can’t get into further
details but the fact that we kept in touch was kind of surprising to me. In an
extremely short period of time I started confessing to him very personal stuff
such as my depression, anxiety and so on…That's when I was shocked the most, he
never, tried comforting me, he would never sugarcoat the situation to make me
feel better, he was brutally honest, so honest that sometimes I even regretted telling
him anything. All that till I came to the realization that he did something
rare & unique, he would tell me what I needed
to hear, not what I wanted to
hear. I knew he cared about me; it was tough love, tough but love. If you know
me, you know that I never, ever, cry in front of other people not even at
funerals. Well, he might have seen me shed a tear or two. I just felt a weird
sense of safety and calmness around him, I just trusted him too much, nowadays
there are still things that I won’t tell anyone just because they’re not him.
L rarely talked about his problems as he used to
say he didn’t have any serious issues going on besides studying and girls. He wouldn’t
get easily pissed off or fight etc. but if you hurt his feelings you better stay
away from him. I think the one thing I hated the most about him is how chill he
was and still is; he wouldn't fight for me, ever. There was no such thing as an
irreplaceable person for him with very limited exceptions.
He made me laugh; I loved him, maybe a little too much for my and his liking. I
got more than attached, that was my biggest mistake.
Him leaving taught me, I can actually emotionally
survive on my own, and so can you no matter how much someone meant to you, it
seems impossible but then… it’s done, you’ll be fine."
As
always,
Athina,
x.
