Why I walked away.

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This one is for all the people I walked away from; my high school boyfriend, my 3 teenage-years-besties, the 3 male close friends I had and in general anyone I ghosted although I had some kind of serious relationship with.

Let me start off by saying that was never my initial intention. The reasons why I leave people are quite specific; though they change, they depend on the other person and our relationship. I’m for the most part, an introvert but if you earn my trust, I’ll be an open book and I will quickly develop feelings and care for you. I can get very attached to those that allow me to, with their words or actions. I know I can be a pain in the ass and very hard to cope with, but be sure that if I start loving you, I’d do just about anything for you, no joke. Having said that, for me to walk away from someone is very rare so when it happens it’s cause I had no other choice.  

I leave when I feel unwanted. When I notice someone’s behavior towards me changing and they don’t give me an actual reason why. I leave when I feel like there’s nothing left to fight for. I leave when I see no future in a relationship. I leave when I’m suffocating. I leave when no matter what I do, I don’t feel the way I used to feel for someone. I leave when I see no effort from the other side to save what we have. I leave when a relationship makes me more depressed than happy. I leave when it’s only words and promises and never actions. I leave when the other person doesn't give me space to breathe, when one does not understand my need to spend time alone. I leave when it gets too much for me to stay.

If I walked away from you,
Sorry.

Athina, x.

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