To all the people that do self-harming, cut themselves or have committed an unsuccessful suicide.

Before everything I have to tell you that this is my “story” it’s kind of short but I think it will make you think better the next time you try to hurt your self… I’m a 15-year-old girl from Greece called Athina, I lost my mum 2 years ago and I live with my dad and my younger brother. So… the last few days I’ve been fighting with a lot of my friends from school, I feel like I can’t trust anyone, some people have betrayed me and it feels like everybody is going to do the same if I trust them, I know there are people who care about me but they keep pushing me. Maybe it’s my fault, maybe I with my behavior keep them away from me but I’m doing this because I want it, it comes naturally. Yesterday in the morning I fought with my dad and my brother for some silly reasons but there was when I said “that’s enough, I can’t do this anymore…” so I went upstairs, found a pair of scissors and made some scars… Nobody mentioned, it wasn’t so intensive, I didn’t want to kill my self or bleed because I suffer from anemia and loosing even a small amount of blood will make things very difficult anyway, the same night my brother was having a b-day party at our house (I had the idea of hosting a party and prepared almost everything) it went so much better than I expected, than we all expected so many kids came, all the food was eaten and everyone was having fun after all this we cleaned the room and went to sleep. The next morning (today) I woke up, looked at the scars and everything had disappeared there was just a small scratch nothing more. I sat and thought “Why am I doing this? Why did I do this? This is weakness but I’m strong, I was strong when my mom died, I’ve come through so many difficulties and still have survived. Yesterday I made a great party all of the kids hugged me before leaving, the danced with me, played with me and they were HAPPY I made them happy, they gave me love, that’s all I need: love & support.” Then Jennifer Lopez (my idol for 10 years) came on my mind and all she has said and then I was like “Jennifer, she is the reason why I’m still here, my love, my universe, my queen, my second mum, JLovers, her movies, CDs, songs and EVERYTHING. She taught me to NEVER give up no matter what and my mom want me to do this it’s just a storm, it won’t last forever, I can make things fine, I can fix everything, I can be happy, there are so many reasons to be happy, I won’t disappoint Jennifer nor my mum again, NEVER” there are so many reasons why you should laugh, live, smile stop wasting your time in worthless stuff, keep on cause YOU are pretty and god knows why you’re here do not disappoint him nor your idols, family, people that love you. STOP hurting yourself instead of this turn on the music and dance or put your clothes on and go for a walk no matter who made you feel bad, prove them you’re stronger YOU WORTH MORE THAN ANYONE ELSE AND GOD KNOWS IT, OK? Enough said bye princesses and princes! :)

Athina, 24.03.2013

P.S. You can follow me on Twitter: @Athina_Lopez and tweet/DM me for help I’m always here to hear you and help you, together we can do so much better, right?

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