Lifentasy

I miss y ou and you already know. I know you do. I’ve told you so many times hoping you’ll at som e point say it back but it never happ e ned. I’m okay with that. But I’m not okay with your absence, not yet. I miss the way your body fe l t next to mine or on me. I miss that little smile, the dimples, the way you l ooked at me before kissing me. I miss who you were 2 months ago. I miss your aura. I miss you making me feel cal m , caring about me, calling me things. I even miss you getting pissed at me, our stup i d little fights. I miss who I thought you were, the idea I had of us, of this. I miss you whe n I’m tipsy.  I wish I could hug you and never let yo u go. I wish I could turn back time and s top it when we were so good. When I felt a connection, when yo u knew how to make me happy. When y o u were sure you wanted me in your life, when you loved me or at least prete n ded to do so. It hurts like hell, God knows it does. I miss you telling me you can’t stop think...

"Stop staring at me; I won't say another word." I don't believe in religion but I deeply believe in God. I believe that the universe can hear your thoughts and the moon can see you cry. I believe the stars accompany you on those lonely nights. I believe in people's aura. Your energy speaks for you before you open your mouth.  "They say eyes never lie. True, you know what's the issue with this theory though?! We think we can read through others' eyes but can we really?" Can you ever be sure why or how?  I've never really trusted anyone; I just keep taking risks and destroying my inner peace trying to find someone genuine, I can at some point call "my person" or "the one who'll always have my back"; neither a lover nor a friend, just a human being.  One of my favorite singers has a song called "High by the Beach". Oh, Lana, let's get high anywhere, I'm sick of feeling low. "You don't n...

Baby, I'm sorry I'm telling you this over a text but if I don't do it now, I won't ever do it. I think it's time we give up on this 'friendship'. I'm done fighting for you. I'm done always worrying whether you love me or care about me. Friends are supposed to lift each other up we, apparently, can't do this for each other. I know you're just as tired as I am. Or maybe more. I'm tired of always being the one putting my selfishness aside so we make it up after a fight that wasn't even my fault and you not giving a fuck about making me feel better. I'm not blaming you or trying to make you feel bad, your personality is like this, I tried to accept it so hard , I swear I did. You broke my heart, I feel like you never really expressed your true, honest feelings about me because you were worried you might hurt me. It didn't work, I feel so bad but I have nothing left to give you.  I wish I could fix you. I wish I could m...