God knows you tried.

You prayed, you cried, you were up all night; trying to figure out what went so wrong, what mistakes you made and whether you could possibly fix them. Over and over again. For so long, so much energy invested in a single human being that was doing just fine without you. You loved her more than she could ever be able to handle. You were ready to save her ungrateful ass despite the cost. Look at you sucker, you don’t deserve all this pain, nobody does. Or maybe, just maybe, she does. You loved her with your entire soul, you know it. God knows.

She runs around with people who’d never do half of the things you’d still –after all this time, do for her; believing those are the “real ones” just because with them it’s easy and fun. You tried everything, you gave everything you literally had, anything and everything for a person who can’t even understand this type of love because she’s never felt it. She broke you, she made you feel worthless, like you don’t matter; yet you loved her just as much.

You wanted to show rainbows to someone who was colorblind. She fooled you, made you believe it was all real. Delusional. You even went to therapy in order to fix your behavior but, baby, you’re perfectly wired. She threw away the purest thing that had ever happened to her. She just doesn’t know yet; she’ll figure it out sooner or later.

God knows you tried, He knows how much pain you had to deal with. He was right there. So, give it to Him and let go at last. He’ll heal your wounds and eventually everyone will get what they deserve, so stop worrying and let Him take over.

Athina, x.