I fell like a fool.

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This is the first time I'm so overwhelmed by my own emotions that I have no idea how to put them into words; though I'm gonna try or I'll drown. You know pain is what usually inspires me to write anything you read from me, alhtough this time it's different. I'm obsessing over someone I never even thought I'd give a second look at. This feeling is so new to me, I don't even know how to call it; lust? Desire? Attraction? Well, definitely way more powerful than the last one.

You came exactly when I needed you the most, right when I was missing that rush in my blood and that kind of stupidity in my head, the one we experience when we fall in love, madly.

Crazy: that's how it's called. I'm crazy mad about you and I haven't even touched you yet. You've fucked my mind so many times, physical attraction has nothing on it, to be honest. I don't know how to stop myself from going completely nuts over you. I love your soul and your mind and I admire you so fucking much for what you stand by and who you are.

I fall in love with personalities not looks. And you're the perfect example of that. I'm well aware this will never be a real something but I don't give a flying damn. I'm gonna try and make it work until I fall hard on my face and come back to reality.

Love never came easy, with chocolate and flowers, in my life, ever. I've learnt that being in love is tough shit but at times SO worth it. I become jealous, possessive, over-protective and super worried. I put my heart and soul into my relationships, which is why I usually break it all by myself.

I promise I'll make this love story different than all my previous ones and give you something good as hell to read about.

I'll be back soon,
Athina, x

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