illusion.

Surrounded by faces, many of them, all with a story to tell and opinions to share. Some familiar some of strangers. A bunch of conversations firing up around me, listening but not hearing. Taking another sip of my drink staring at the sea, lifting my head, stars, millions of them, grains of sand. The sound of the waves and the light from the night sky. Blurry voices, clear vision of the moon, it looks bloody red tonight, love.

My phone vibrates and a grin was painted on my face. Looking back at the sky, are there any falling stars? Or at least pretend an airplane is one of those. I could really use a wish right now, to be honest. I'm not alone, then why do I feel so lonely? I haven't seen you in a while but it's not your physical appearance what I'm missing, it's your presence and the way I feel when you're sitting next to me.

Being alone physical and emotional are two very different things. Feeling lonely in a crowded place has nothing to do with how many people you're surrounded by. It's all about who those humans are. If your human is missing from said crowd; you're the loneliest you've ever been.

This isn't it though... I could fight all these feelings if I knew you're fine wherever you're at. All I wanna do is be there beside you to help you fight all your demons and ugly thoughts no matter how hard or painful it might be.

Dizzy mind and powerful emotions. I don't even care anymore. All I'm asking for is a chance to prove I can do it. To convince you I know you're worth it; to convince you you're worthy of every single star on this gorgeous fucking glitter sky. That your only limit is your self, that you are capable of going far beyond this bloody moon and that I'll stop the waves from kissing the shore if that's what it takes to make you happy.

I wanna drink bottles of wine and watch the sun rising and setting with you. I need you to let go of your worries for once and be completely carefree. 

And I'm gonna make it happen.

To my girl,
Athina, x.